BEING IGNITED.

This verse is my personal testimony to his greatness. I lived in pain and anxiety and fear everyday. I was ashamed of what I allowed people to label me, of who I represented. I could not understand why I was depressed, have outburst of emotional destress, out bursts of anger. The only person I could not run from was myself. Instead of running away from myself I ran into God. When I came into his presence I became aware, aware of the pain, shame, guilt, and the many masks that I hoarded deep inside me. It was like I finally faced the truth of it all. I always knew it was there but I thought that it was normal for it to be in the back of my mind like some bell that goes off to remind me how bad I was. What a lie I believed.

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Then one of the Seraphs flew to me with a live coal in his hand, which he had taken with tongs from the alter. With it he touched my mouth and said, " see this has touched your lips; your guilt it taken away and your sin atoned for." -Isaiah 6:6-7

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Like Isaiah I was scorched by God. His fire cleansed me and made me aware of the beliefs of my past. It brought me to a place of healing and actualization of the person he created me to be. My True Self. I met myself for the first time this month. How raw, and real it was. Like I met a stranger. Now I can take the steps to heal and cleanse my heart so that I can enjoy my life and be who God created me to be. To be free. Fully free.

Free from my past, free from shame, free from depression, free from guilt, free from all the people who rejected me, free from all my haters and what they said about me, and free from the ones that used me, abused me, and threw me away. I am also free from the ones that did not protect me, that did not stand up for me, or fight for me. I am free from the ones who stripped my true identity, that stole my heart, and took me for granted. Now God is sending me to fight for you, and to not only speak to you but to speak up for you, and give back to you all that he has given me.

You can have it too! You can have relief, and freedom too! There is no other time than now when we are able to isolate and be aware of our demons, and darkness in private. We have to be willing to face the pain head on and be willing to fully accept what he has for us. He wants to heal us and restore us, comfort us, and bless us. When we go to him and are in his presence we transform immediately because of his goodness and truth. The goodness and truth are so clear that we become so aware of all our pain, guilt, mistakes, and behavior. Give it to him to burn away with his never ending fire. Burn it all away so that you can be renewed and regenerated by his forgiveness and mercy. Let it Go, Let it Out, Throw it Away. Scorch it, torch it till if flies away. Open your hearts to the wonderful love God so desperately wants to soak you in. Receive his peace, and joy.

God bless you.

Em